ギャラリーに過去絵を追加しました。去年の今頃はすごく丁寧かつ短時間で描いているのがわかり、悔しかったです。育児に家事に…と言い訳気味だったので気合をいれないとダメですね。とは思いつつ、別に他人に頼まれた訳でもないので必死になって、変な事考えているなあなんて思ってしまいます。頑張って絵を描いて偉いね！と褒められたいのか？そんなバカな事ってあるか。自分が満足できれば良いだけなのにね。お腹がすいた。今からラーメンを食べます。
I’ve added some older artwork to the gallery.
Looking through them, I realized that around this time last year I was drawing much more carefully, yet somehow much faster than I do now. It was a little frustrating to see.
I’ve been telling myself it’s because of raising kids and keeping up with housework… but maybe that’s just an excuse. I need to get myself moving again.
Then again, nobody is asking me to do this. Sometimes I catch myself thinking, Why am I trying so hard? It’s kind of silly.
Do I just want someone to pat me on the back and say, “Good job drawing today”? That sounds ridiculous.
In the end, the only person I really need to satisfy is myself.
Anyway… I’m hungry. Time for some ramen.